Baru balik daripada Kayaking Penat tau!! cheyy bual melayu ok first thing first Kayaking is superly fun i cant wait for the star 2 course i hate hazique he and capt. Zai said i have a stone in my mouth thats why i talk funny really ah? so mean sey.!!
Kayaking! i hate capsizing it's scary wayy scary but ilove kayaking its fun to kayak around amirul and jamal ahaha they both you langar them they panic like hell ahahaha.
This few days have been an emotional day i went to school crying that day coz i was alarh something personl lah hehs.. azri noes hee.. just now trip back to school i cried again haiz... so sad lah i cant beleive he is graduating i maybe not able to see him again adn thats SUCKY!! *SOB* just whne things was getting really great my love life really is complicated sey and i dunt think i want to bother with it right now. haiz...
in a glimpse of an eye you'r gone far away from each other come back here and let me hug you and forever may we stay that way
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| Monday, October 30, 2006
Aiyoh! wh i wake up so fast sey now is like only 6.30 am i still have 1 more hour to go and there is not even a thing for me to do right now Freakingly boring!!
Aniways. yesterday was a long day had lots of fun though was happy all the ways though i ddint really like Hazique's cousin coz as many would noe i Anti-mats and he looked and acts exactly like one *shrugss* Reached home quite late at about 10++ prepared for bed time and went to watch tv. watched tollgate girl i just love that show lah freaking nice and cute adn funnny BUt i love the other show more the one wtih Amy Matura and Anuar Zain. coz I love Anuar Zain!!!.
Ok so it was bed time i cried to sleep i guess was freaking emotional i guess. Thinking about how the seniors is gonna leave us and we will not be able to see them in school anymore next year haiz...
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| Sunday, October 29, 2006
Just when i thought " I can finally be happy!, nothing to worry about" it happens again! I mean yeah i have moved on it was hard but i made it i know you people out there dont care some may even be happy -.-'' watever!! adn yuo dont even noe wats going on with my life nobody noes except wani i guess I'm a mess!!! thats for sure I have moved on it's ok if i feel a sudden force of attraction for guy but so doesnt mean im going around liking other guyS kan! i dont flirt per i just want to be able to be around them to be able to interact with them and then sort out my feelings properly!! haiz... if only people were more understanding..
I'm in such a huge pile of mess!!
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| Saturday, October 28, 2006
Weee... i'm excited My baby brother just learned to say a new word he said: "Hari Raya" so cuteeee... hhe was actully singing it lah instead of saying so cute lah and the cutest part is that he made a mess of the whole house kan! so i made him cleaned everything again he picked up all the small seeds i made him picked it up one by one andput it back, and i made him picked up all the rubbish and stuffs so cute lah ahahahah imagine a 1 year old kid tidying up
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The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
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| Friday, October 27, 2006
Just finished watching CHARMED! the saddest part was when Pheobe didnt realised that the Cupid loves her actully.. haiz.. so sad he is super hawwt lah!
Too bad lah! i just hope they get to be together at the end oh yeah i was watching Smallville before too and i just cant help but to think that Lex is hwwt tooo especially when he kissed Lana he looked so sexy hehs But Lana looked deperate. hehs
Cute!! hee..
Oh well gtg my soyabean drinik finish already haiya!.. Ghost wisprer pun dah start!
Day and night i kept thinking about you nad when everyone is sleeping i stayed up to think abt you..
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Last Day of school... Last Day School.. OH MY GOSH!! LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!
That's sad All the seniors will be graduating. No more: -Pravin -Mugilan -Fayyadh -Faz -Hadi -That Sec 5 guy (Kholid)..
Haiz.. nevermind! Anyways.. school ended early today Played soccer and more soccer took pictures here and there played sommore soccer and went home! I went home at the right time sey i'm happy for that hehs..
Was waiting for the 800 bus to arrive then saw him. then when i was about to board the bus he called my name he was like: " Fatimah you got hp number??" then i was like: "i lost my phone" him: "then how to contact??" me: "dunno?" he just smiled and we board the bus then i fell asleep .. then reached Northpoint i waved goodbye to him then i wanted to go down the bus when he gave me his numebr! =) hee...
This holiday may be the begining of something new!
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| Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Watch 'So you think you can dance??' well go watch i love the show man! it's super good lah looking at people dance! but then i know who wins already lah BENJI !!! he so cute lah! oh my gosh he is super good i love hime man hehs i love everybody hee but he is like super good you shud watch him at the Tyra Bank's show he is super cute
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Selamat Hari Raya! Have fun celebrating peeps! haiz.. boring ah this year nothing to do you know! my mom sick i do not even feel like going anywhere Tell you something if my mum wasnt sick things will brighten up seriously!! i mean if she was not sick: - Rod Montero(radio dj) would have come to our house becoz he is my sister's friend. - Flyring dutchman would have appeared too.. - i would have gotten my duit raya by now -there would have been more food though there is a number of food now!..
But i did went my nenek's house but as dumb as it is they were all on their way out already when we arrive there but at least still got money total: $20 teruk kan!!! tell me about it.. my raya pictures!! quite nice lah! but then hehs.. i ddint put pin then can like kinda see my bra inside hee..=)
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| Monday, October 23, 2006
Monday: Didnt go to school today. Busted kan!!! Captain of the street soccer thingy lagi! haiz.. but then my mom tak bagi pergi sekolah wat to do!!?? My baby sister just can't stop cryine can she. i think she only wants me lah!! =) cheyyy
Form hantar on thrursday can kan? 26th per i hope can lah.. wait, let's count Monday-23 Tuesday-24 wednesday-25 Thursday-26 correct ah!! hantar 26kan?? haiz shud be ah!!
" And every little peice of him is right" Just thinking about him takes me to the night "Everytime we meet the picture is complete" He's all i ever need to fall inlove again I knew from the very start He's the puzzle of my heart!!
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| Friday, October 20, 2006
Oh gosh i love Anuar Zain listening to him singing right now the Hari Raya song i think this is teh time of things that really bring you into the festive mood... I love ANUAR ZAIN!!!!... nice, best!!
Anyways, my parents weren't at home so nothing to eat my bro cooked some things he seriously lah i dunno what to say ah! the nasi goreng extremely pedas and MASIN!!! haiyoooooooo....xD
In skool didnt trin much for track n feild lah didnt do gym work at all lah didnt sahur so no energy at all but sleeping in the gym is nice!!
i dunno what it wrong with me this few days i very errmmm.. emo-tional?? haiz.. was irritated by Muthe so sat alone one corner i shoudnt be left alone coz my mind will start racing here and there so i was thinking about everything that has happen and out of the sudden i burst out crying especially when i saw him. haiz... dunno why lah! I mean i dunt know if i still do like him or not but then everyday i look forward to adore adn admire him hmmm.. maybe.. oh yeah he's hawwwwt.. right no wonder maybe there is still intsy bitsy of feelings for him . yeah!.. and watever so he is still that Hawwwt soccer guy with the fat legs and couldnt pronounce 's' properly... I miss andi!! hehs
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| Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Got my results back already don't ask me about it coz i will propably KILL YOU!!! Unless i told you about it lah then that one different story lah..
Anyways my cousins is staying overnight at my house were supposed to go out with her but we didnt meet.. haiz.. i said she stood me up but she said the other way round so like watever lah.. give in jer.. since she is visiting kalau tak aku tak bagi chance aku jadi macam Pakistan " coz Pakistan taknak kalah per" and seriously make her to blame.. hee evil xD
Before i go any further i want to get certain things straighten out first There is NOTHING going on between me and Adib ok coz actually i think i'm falling for this guy in secondary 2 he is a very unexpected person lah i wont tell yuo who i wont tell anyone!! but if you really pay attention to me you may propably guess so coz i may acccidentally keep on blabbing about him but i dunt like him dat much lah but i prefer him more then the other guys hee.... but i dunno if i still have feelings for him him... it's all a big blur!! but who cares i wanna kill myself playing soccer so yeah.. HECK CARE!!!
Love you ALL may good be lenient to you ok lame watever hell..
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| Sunday, October 15, 2006
Oooooh... i just placed a new song this is like my all time favourite song but yeah i know you guys don't like it right! Anyways, i need to write this song down man it's like really describing my situation lah. =)
Day after day time passed away and i just can't get you off my head nobody knows i hide it inside and i keep on searching but i can't find
The courage to show to letting you know i've never felt so much love before
And once again i'm thinking about Taking the easy way out.
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me how will i know if i let you go
Night after night i heard myself say why can't this feeling just fade away There's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask i'm too proud to lose but sooner or later i've got to choose and once again i'm thinking about taking the easy way out
But if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me how will i know if i let you go
By westlife (their first single i think.
You seem too good to be true
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| Saturday, October 14, 2006
People been telling me that my blog is very emo-ish ok i do admit it my last post is totally emo giler babi. but i can't help it
i mean when you are feeling down and yuo have no one to turn to to tell your problems that is when your blog/ diary come in kan?!!
Anyways i tend to become very personal with my things especially when it comes to diary
so i'm sorry if you hate readin my blog as you find it stupidly emo-ish but to hell to you who hte hell told you to read my blog kan i dnt need you reading my blog sey you dnt own my life so heck ah!!
ok sorry hehs baru bangu tidur ;ah sure a bit cranky ah hehs
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| Friday, October 13, 2006
hmmm... just feel like writting this short sentences or phrases down.
I love you but those feelings are overshadowed by sadness and regret...
The thing we had between us is now destroyed..
Would you hug me and kiss me passionately if i ask for it?
We were connected by one feeling but now you seems so far away even when you were a strand of hair away.
The feeling of love for you is still buried deep inside me but sometimes i feel like taking a shovel to dig and throw it all away coz there is no point in it anymore.
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| Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Today went to skool with a fucking anger inside me First:My maid woke me up late for sahur. She woke me up at around 5am then like i dunno wat time IMSAK siak. so decided to just drink water. Drank 2 glasses of it den went back to sleep Second:Thought of reading the home-econs things on the way to skool. Found out i lost it in skool. I have not even memorise or read anything. Marah giler babi siak.
But things started to brighten up. The paper turns out to be ermm... wat's that phrase again? " Chicken Feet!" ?
Anyway then played soccer and all those normal stuffs I realised something HAZIQUE HAS A VERY NICE VOICE!!!!! especially when he sang "bukan kerana nama " by Ramli Sarip
I was so touched sey. i like it when he tarik gosh i was so mesmerised
oh yeah played soccer too much leg hurt like hell open the shoe realised i had a blood clot then i was too scared to like burst the skin or smthn like dat to take out the blood adn guess who came to the rescue? HAZIQUE
I was like squirming here and dere and finally the blood like spurt out gosh i'm so thnkful to him i dnt know why but hmmm.... hazique really made me happy today i mean like he called me Masayu, abd for the first time someone called me dat and it actually sounded nice then he really made me laugh and he defended me over some things and he made sure he sang the song dat i wanted him to nicely
You know wat, for the first time i actually meant it when i say i wanted to kiss him i mean i say dat to every guy but he was the only one i meant it!! haiz
get this straight i'm not falling for him coz there is this other guy that i love nvm it's complicated. though i wish it wasnt.
I know i am trying to tell myself that i love you nomore but how hard i try i have to admit this i love you still..
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| Tuesday, October 10, 2006
haiz.. i guees i have to get this off my chest as soon as possible so as to not burden me darlings with the overflowing of tears.
Anyway. *breaths in* this stupid(maybe not) is really weighing me down but the only way to feel better is to just talk to someone i did but i guess it didnt not help coz propably they did not understand my situation. Thanx anyway HAZWANI and JANI (I love you! x) cheyyy) I dont think i wanna admit it but deep inside me, i know i still have feelings for him but we all know i know it. You know it that the thing between us will not work out
I mean like wat wani said 'communication is the most important thing' look at us we hardly speak to each other and if we did it will be only two or three words and if we are lucky it will be a sentence. patehtic? tell me abt it. =/
i don't why but everytime i'm in this kind of situation there is always something wrong and i will be the one ending up backing out
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| Monday, October 09, 2006
Today paper, literature ennded early it was the for the first time i find the paper quite easy =) hip-hip hoooraayyy...
Anyway played soccer after school den went nortpoint didnt not have anything to do so we went watch JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE it was such a beautiful show i wanna watch it again ah it 's super nice lah the guy super hot ah ahahaahah..
Many thnax to my special girlfriend Sukashi who helped me endure my fasting coz i was like whinning to her the whole day saying i'm thirsty and all htat stuff thnx to her i had self-controlled and fast the whole day hehs i love you darling! but i love him more but i love the other guy more aahahahah ok merepek main ckp jer there is not a guy lah!!
i wich i i know wta is going through your mind coz obviously it is killing me trying to intepret you maybe ishud just forget about all this and JUST MOVE ON!!!
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| Friday, October 06, 2006
Wow! i so didnt realsied it was already Friday lah i'm super scared you know like time just when past whizzing past me without even allowing me to take alook at it shit man i cant wait to grow up and to enjoy working life but i still want to enjoy my childhood life sia.
Anyway./ Geography paper sucks lah oh my god i cant beleive i had difficulty doing it i knew i shud ave studied even more and stop ikut kan nabsu haiya i hope i get good grades sia
After exam looked around everyone's faces was so fucked up lah stress giler babi so the only way to distress is to... kick soccer balls. nice lah i get to realyy ram the ball at the wall though today i dunno why i get so clumsy and kept on falling on my butt every now and then but it was fun
Now at home with nothin got do my left leg got blister right leg filled with bruises and the leg is kinda twisted pain siak but like satisfied...
I wanna hug you and kiss you and never let you go till i'm SATISFIED..
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| Thursday, October 05, 2006
Yesterday:
We all studied in the canteen. then like everyone was so restless so like i came up with an idea. " let's play the zip zap game" There was Me, sukashi,hazwani, faiz,amirul, jamal,there was more i guess but i dnt remember.
Anyway tried explaining to them how the game goes they very slenger but very cute looking at the way they try to like figure the game out. finally they got it so we tried Explaining berjam-jam main 1 minute jer hehs then we played truths or dare. Jamal got hit first and guess what they ask "do you like Fatimah" -.-'' haiz... the least they could do was errmm.. nevermind. Hehs guess wat he said.. hehs "yes"
then right after his turn i got hit but i took a dare and i had to say i love you to Jamal haiz.. it was not difficult if i had to say to him without them around but too bad they were and they like wat sey..
Then got bored playing it Then azri came along then he ask a question a very personal question and everyone had to answer it
One of hte question was: who is the person you hate the most..male and female? for male mostly was anwari for femal was errmmm... i cant say it lah i pity her coz she thinks they are her bestfrens so yeah nvm
so in the end we went home safe and happy.
Come here darling i'll kiss the bump for you and make you feel all better =)
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| Tuesday, October 03, 2006
i assume everyone knows that i have been trying to avoid the past.. well and i never did provided the best answer right? well thats because i my self didnt know but i knew the past was really painful
Just now i was waiting for the 804 bus at the interchange. then as you guys know 804 and 806 are like side by side right. so as i was about to join the line i saw a familiar face too familiar i saw him... seeing him again made all the memories flood back how hard i tried to forget it i just can't
continueing. we then just looked at each other without saying anything then i was like.... donno wat to do so i justwalked off..
i mean wat do you say to a guy you used to like sooo much but then when you are finally together then things start to go wrong and you have to break with him coz you know that is the only thing to do but you know at that time you really did love him very much
hmm... so what do yuo say to him ah? =/
how hard i try you're still there and he only thing can do is to cry and realised things turned out that way for the best.. and we have to move on with life since i found a new guy to love...
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| Sunday, October 01, 2006
Exams coming beter get this off my chest now..
The first sight of you made my heart beat faster but we were distanced by some force of influence
But now we are here again connected by one feeling though our body is not yet together i beleive in you...
we will find the courage together coz when all is lost we'll be the one suffering having the perfume of memories thinking of the reminiscence of past gaiety
with everything gone shower of sadness comes along gaiety will not stay for long.
(not dedicated to anybody) just had to write whis down coz it has been bugging me for like ever.
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Created at 16:42
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Her Say
If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me
and come out at night
when I turn jet black
and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
BETTER LOOK
FATIMAH MASAYU
Above average of height
With a weight on a constant movement
But still acceptable
I'm dark skin, all thnx to,
those outdoor activities i engage in
I talk way too much
But who cares
I'm just being myself
Im told that I’m violent
Hear this!
I know that and,
I dnt need you people to keep
Repeating that like its some kind of chant.
Wishlist
New Phone
New Shoe
New Jersey
New and Better Results
Lots and lots of MONEY
Clay Aiken's newset Album
Taufik Batisah's upcoming album
Hady Mirzah Upcoming Album
