i just have to post it it's so darn funny and cute haha jamal just keep on saying the darnest thing haha he was asking me, " eh wasif ngan hanim eh?" den i was like,"nolah" hahaha this is the funny part "wah they walk berdua-dua jer. this is my first time seeing wasif's soft PART" HAHA insted of saying side he said part understand? sound so wrong it sounds as if wasif was steaming untill can see he's birdy! haha its so funny. haha i love jamal can? haha cheyyy bedek
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| Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Just finished reading some people's blog. i can't stand it i mean how could people stay so happy?! how could they constantly smile? seriously my life is like an utter fucking shit. i just hate everyone and everything. i need to have somewhere i could run to and just be alone with no one to bother with my thoughts scratch that. to bother with ME. i just feel like crying right now for no apparent reason.
the secondary 4n guys found my wallet just now that's something to cheer up for i guess i'm extremely thankful to them but yeah as expected, no money inside but at least my ez-link card was inside along with all my nets and other stuffs.
Went home early today played with my little devil then put her to sleep and off to watching SUPERNATURAL i just love that show. its the only thing i look forward to it everyday in every way
oh! oh! and i have a picture f my new bf in my file do come and view it cheyy bedek more like drawing of a non existent hot guy drew it in like 3 minutes during english class. haha..
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| Monday, February 26, 2007
Saturday and Sunday was the utmost fun ever the three of us, sukashi and hazwani decided to go for the kid central audition the place damn packed we were hoping nobody came but too bad. waited for like4 hours to just register once finished registering we were told to come back the next day since there was too many people to audition within one day. sad!
i still can't get over the fact that we went one whole round from esplanade just to get to long john silver when it's only a few metres away from the mrt station selenger betul sey kiter orang. haha..
The audition was a disaster but at least we had fun i mean there was others who we could tell was damn stressed out chill ah i mean its obvious your not gonna make it haha. evil! but it's just a stepping stone for me so i don't really expect anything from this i mean i forgot my script haiyo. i know i'm not gonna make it haha. but it's ok i guess.
i think me sukashi and hazwani really do make a great girlfriends. its was utterly fun just the three of us walking around city hall and practically everywhere i like the part when we keep on getting lost all thanks to sukashi haha. but i love them anyways, we took lots of ubber crazy pictures. haha and i keep on doing that stupid " choose a finger" phrase. i love it sey! i love them!
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| Friday, February 23, 2007
Your Deadly Sins
Envy: 100%
Greed: 80%
Pride: 80%
Sloth: 80%
Wrath: 80%
Gluttony: 60%
Lust: 40%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 74%
You will die a boring death. While dying, you will be jealous of those who die dramatic deaths.
that is so cool but they have no say in my chances of going to hell so yeah gosh i must be one bored girl haha i have posted about 3 post within one day who the hell do that sey. haha. i didn't go to school sey skipped school today woke up late the best reason not to come school haha. my mum don't mind so why should i right? =)
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When Taurus and Capricorn form a friendship, it's a practical, sensible combination of Earth Signs. Both are logical and down to earth, strongly disciplined, and both have high standards. Taurus appreciates Capricorn's dedication, and Capricorn admires their Taurus friend's strength. This friendship has a strong foundation based on material security and a realistic approach to life in general. Both are dependable and conservative. Taurus can help Capricorn to relax a little and appreciate the fruits of labor. Capricorn can help motivate Taurus to achieve goals and make dreams a reality. Taurus is ruled by Venus, and Capricorn is ruled by Saturn. Venus is a warm, feminine energy, and Saturn a cold, masculine energy. Venus is physical; it's about romance and sensuality, both of which are important to Taurus. Saturn is about hard work and the discipline to achieve goals. Taurus will show Capricorn how to enjoy a well-deserved break every so often and how to appreciate beauty and comfort. Capricorn can teach Taurus to be more disciplined and to keep reaching out for what they desire.
Your kisses linger; they are deliberate, heartfelt and they can go on and on and on…
Though relaxed and steady-seeming, Taurus longs to dig into life -- and what better time for self-indulgence (minus the guilt) than a birthday? The sensual-to-the max Bull enjoys decadent parties catered with tons of rich, flavorful food, fun music to dance to and other physical delights. Make sure to come to the affectionate Bull's birthday party with your arms both full of gifts and ready to give a tender hug. Perfect Gift: Keenly tuned in to all five senses, Taurus appreciates things like bath salts and scented candles. What does a Taurus wish for as the candles are blown out? That they could celebrate and indulge this way every day of the year.
Taurus, the second Sign of the Zodiac, is all about reward. Unlike the Arian's love of the game, Taureans love the rewards of the game. Think physical pleasures and material goods, for those born under this Sign revel in delicious excess. They are also a tactile lot, enjoying a tender, even sensual, touch. Taureans adore comfort and like being surrounded by pleasing, soothing things. Along these lines, they also favor a good meal and decadent dessert. The good life in all its guises, whether it's the arts or art of their own making (yes, these folks are artistic as well), is heaven on Earth to the Taurean-born.
It's the Bull that is the Taurean's mascot, and along with that comes the expectation that these folks are bull-headed and stubborn. Yes, they are. Hey, this Sign has a Fixed Quality attached to it after all, so expect that things will occasionally grind to a halt. That said, Taureans don't start out with the intention of getting stuck. They simply want to get things done, and it's that steady, dogged persistence which winds up being viewed as stubbornness. Bulls are actually among the most practical and reliable members of the Zodiac, and they are happy to plod along, as it were, in pursuit of their goals. The good news for Bulls is that once they get to the finish line, they'll swaddle themselves in material goods. A self-indulgent beast? Perhaps, but if you toiled as laboriously as these folks do, you'd need some goodies, too.
Taurus is ruled by the Planet Venus, a lovely gal who didn't deny herself many things. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was the Goddess of Love, Beauty and Pleasure, and Taureans have pretty much taken up where she left off. Bulls are fond of all things pretty, whether it's in their home, at a museum or on the stage. Life as one sweet pas de deux is how the Taurean-born like it. To onlookers, this may look like so much materialism and blessed excess, but Bulls really aren't interested in living without beauty in their lives. Beauty to the Bull also comes in the way of a stable, happy home life.
Taureans value harmony in their personal lives, so they'll work hard on keeping their mate happy. The Bull's penchant for sensual pleasures, of course, can only help things along! Bulls can also be the sappiest of sentimentalists. Will all this overweening attention to their mate turn a Bull into a possessive mess? Probably not, although these folks do have to manage their tendency to latch on a bit tight. At the end of the day, however, the Taurean-born are true romantics and loyal to the core.
Venus, when placed in the sign of Taurus, denotes a romantic, affectionate lover and friend. Rich beauty and sensuality are attributed to people with this configuration and their emotions are stable and dependable. Those with Venus in Taurus are likely to be enraptured forever and will be more responsive and devoted as relationships get heavier. If you are true to type, you tend to have a penchant for the finer, more luxurious things in life. You may spend a lot of energy on obtaining possessions and material objects for emotional security. Often these types have a talent or appreciation for creativity and culture of any realm. You probably enjoy music, fine food and art immensely. Venus-in-Taurus types are blessed with the capacity to savor each moment to the fullest, and instinctively seek out the beauty in their surroundings. However, you may want to watch out for a possessive streak!
Final note: We think you will flourish in relationships that provide you with a real sense of belonging and stability.
Books: The patient Bull won’t have a problem plodding through educational books or drawn-out suspense thrillers. While some people need to read the last page first, you can wait to reach the climactic end of an Agatha Christie book, and you'll appreciate every moment of Russian masters like Tolstoy and Doestoevsky. Career: Advertising director, Antique dealer, Assessor, Auctioneer, Bank teller, Banker, Biologist, Business person, Cashier, Clothing designer, Confectioner, Cosmetician, Dancer, Decorator, Evaluator, Financial advisor, Florist, Fundraiser, Furniture maker, Gardener, Investment banker, Make-up artist, Musician, Patron of the arts, Perfumer, Real estate agent, Singer, Venture capitalist, Woodworker Chocolates: Tends to buy two boxes and leave only the orange ones for you. Food: Taurus has a sweet tooth, so marshmallows, cinnamon and nutmeg are all winners. Earth Signs like practical food, too, so hearty dishes with flavors like parsley and mint are a good thing. The Bull will want to savor a meal full of fine flavors, so never take one out for fast food. Movies: The steady Bull is patient, but needs to be rewarded by aesthetic value. Epic films that bring the viewer laughter, tears, and achingly beautiful scenery are tops on the list. Mel Gibson in Braveheart, Cate Blanchett in Elizabeth and Elizabeth Taylor in Cleopatra all fit the bill. Music: Steady and solid, the Bull isn't inclined to listen to anything harsh or grating, but would rather have background music that sets the mood. Country music, with big names like Garth Brooks, Vince Gill and LeAnne Rimes are happening. For romantic background music, violin sonatas by Schubert or Brahms are your best bet. Restaurants: The Epicurean Bull will most likely be found savoring succulent three-course meals at posh five-star restaurants. Surely, dessert will be one of the three courses, as you have quite a sweet tooth. Sports: The brawny Bull has endurance and stamina galore, which would best be put toward sports like rowing, weight lifting, tug-of-war, rugby, gardening or cricket. Travel: Austria, Ecuador, Israel, Japan, The Netherlands, Norway, Portugal, Thailand Television: Miniseries and melodramas are where it’s at for the Bull. You'd probably be perfectly content with flipping on PBS and finding a reworking of a classic English novel. A Civil War tale in thirteen parts? No problem. You'll watch with wonder through the whole thing.
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If you were really sorry, why didn't you even make the effort to come up to me and say sorry?
stop talking to others about me behind my back and think it will settle things stop talking to my friends and try changing the whole story im not stupid i don't have amnesia k i remembered everything you said to me don't try to tell the others otherwise.
It's utterly despicable you did what you did who cares you were in a bad mood or whatever fucking reason you've got to give people for your basterdised behavior. but to set things straight what you did was enough to end the friendship it was enough to hate you for eternity nothing you can do will be enough to right things forget it. i hate you. and i will always do.
somehow, i just can't get this asshole sentenced words that came off from that someone. " why can't you let him be happy for once" i shall not comment i just can't stand you people anymore. stop pretending anymore lah. its fucking revolting.
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I tried denying that all my emotions was caused by PMS. but yeah, it is true after all still i hate school i has always been my first home every morning i would be like" yay! another school day. I'm so looking forward"
But i dunno how it happened but yeah, now school is like, the last place i want to go to every morning i would wake and go" Fuck! another school day, i hate school! Fuck ah!"
i just dunno what has happened to us anymore. but i guess, it was always the four of us, Me. Filzah. Sukashi. Renee i guess it will always be the four of us. though i can tell there will forever be something wrong too.
The street people. i used to be so proud them. i would curse and swore at anybody who made fun of them but now hah! they don't even care anymore i still remember those times when we will suggest a place to go and everyone would follow and those who can't make it, we would suggest plans until they could come but now. they'll just leave without even saying goodbye so i guess it's ok if i did that to them too.
i still remember when we would play soccer everyday after school and stayed back in school till 7+ we would either play soccer or sit down and listen to them strumming their guitar and sing and we would just hang around and emo-ed together. but i guess the only who deserves to hear them play are their secondary1 ugly technical girlfriend huh! FINE with me seriously they don't treasure the friendship as how much they should then they don't even deserve it. hell with them seriously.
but even with that i did still looked forward to school i was always to eager to look at HIM but i guess it's all gone now "if you did try to make me jealous, well done! you did it!" you deserve a clapping from everyone, you did a hell'a good of a job!!
i just don't see why i should continue to go to this school i can't trust anyone there anymore i might go to north view secondary its very near and i bet i can be a top student there this is so dumb!! my mum don't even mind changing my school she'll be happier. urgh!!
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| Wednesday, February 21, 2007
This is fucked up lah! i just hate school nowadays. in my entire 2 + years of going to school, there was never once i dragged going to school but now im starting to.
The people in school, are so urgh!! i shall not elaborate. cause i just feel like spitting all those vulgarities while describing all you people, i'm not relating to everyone, but it covers almost everyone.
My classmate are MOTHER FUCKERS i tell you. not enough i have to suffer in class with them everyday with their fucking stupidness.. i have to suffer losing my wallet because of their in moral behavior! mother .... boooooodooohhhh!! URGH!!!!!
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| Tuesday, February 20, 2007
to those bunch of girls who thinks they're bad:
Of course i have difficulty trying to understand what you guys are trying to imply on to me, thats because your english is horrible and also you don't explain why. Get what i mean?
ok let's see, where i can extract from, ah, the part you said " Hanim , Shamim , Renee , the guys who layan you, they are blind in a sense dat u r so stupid dat you cant even gt the msge dat im tryin to imply on"
see! it doesn't make sense just because i don't get what you guys are saying, my friends are considered blind? weird accusation ey?
but actually i do get what you mean you are trying to tell me that I'm a slut and stuffs related to that. ok i get it! but as you can see, you judge me just like that. you don't even know the real me, if I'm such a slut would anybody even come near me? i may seem wild and all that, but honestly I'm not. =) i mean sluts don't go solat and all that right.? ah there is no point in trying to prove to you people wrong!
oh and there is this one part you said. "you never called us slut! you are the slut, SLUT! haha! this is just dumb lah. Because i was marking your words since you said this too previously. "i may b bad.. but i'm NO ***** and neither a SLUT! see!! what was that for? did i say you guys were sluts? ching ching i didn't !
well you said i am hated bu many people. oh well. it doesn't matter. i don't care what people think of me. that's is why i behave as such. you don;t see girls going everywhere laughing like a hyena right? that's because i do not care! the thing about this is that, i don't care even if the amount of people who hates me accumulated to the whole world Cause the number of people i like or befriend with is just a handful or maybe less. so the contrast there? you can think im stupid or a slut or a whore or whatever it is but what really matters is what i think of myself right? so yeah.. no use for words already girls!! =) ching ching
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I truly love My chemical Romance. I love their songs! i can like spend the whole day just listening to their song and not get bored that is how much i love them. Arh! i love them oh so much! haha..
Yesterday was utterly bored. so me and mum decided to go Suntec city for a walk. but you see.. its public holiday kedai maner jer yang buka. haha but still we did go walk walk was kind of fun. went to many shops. got myself a soccer ball. my mum was giving me the ' what the hell look' but it was on sale so yeah bought it! then went to look at some posters of movies. cool ah! there was this one x-men jacket that wolverine wore it cost like $255++ fuh! nice! there was some other posters of everything. my mum wanter to buy some so not like her. haha but she said she want to use it to decorate the girls room. but must plan first ok maam' haha.. Went carrefour. there was this one indian guy, who want to step sexy with me giving me the eyes and stuff i can't help but to laugh my ass off. haha.
The best part was going to toy R us fun! i love that place. haha. the bus ride home was unfortunately sucky! the bus was full of indians. bau fuyoooh taknak kalah and they are very inconsiderate people seriously they ought to dispesrse i know they have every right to live in this wrld like we do but with their behaviour. *shakes head* irritating bustards!! i love my chemical romance haha.
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| Sunday, February 18, 2007
i just simply love my chemical romance and i didn't know that they had an addition of one guitarist or was i just dreaming? either way, i love their songs though i've surveyed quite a handful number of people and most of their response was " the black parade album is dumb" i don't know if those people have noticed, but everytime thye said, i just feel like cursing them and just smack their face, you don't like it doesn't mean it's bad kan! BACIN! haha.. sounds like cacing.
part of the reason why i adore my chemical romance was because gerard way is super cute i can tell you a 101 reason why i think so haha but mostly its he's eyes and he's adorable sets of teeth
he voice is just amazing he brings hte mood in the song i guess.
here's their new video which i truly adore eh, asik adore jer, ' which i truly love'
My Chemical Romance Famous Last Word
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3 cheers and 3 cheers for my-self hip hip hoooraaaayy!! hip hip hoooraaayyyy!! hip hip HOOOORAAAAAYY!! hahha...
Went to my relatives house It's so cool lah, her house is like 3 minutes walk from school its near the chong pang Macdonald there cool ah everyone there was like in baju kurong and stuffs i just simply wore t-shirt and jeans even worse, my t-shirt says " SUCKER!" haha.. i made myself at home step jerrr.. haha.. i was so used to giving high 5s to all the guys that i actually did that to the guys there and they were like huh?! haha.. bacin!! then there was this datuk he was asking about my school then he was like asking me what cca i was in ( was quite shock, old updated man. haha!) i said track and field. he look surprised then he looked at my body and said this ' badan macam away masuk joget lagi bagus" erpss... haha... but the way he talked can tell he is highly educated. watch supernatural there we just love that show i mean they do i just love Jensen ackles hee..
studied for the whole of 4 hours. didn't even realized that times fly when you are having fun kan haha.. maths is fun i guess!! haha.
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| Saturday, February 17, 2007
aiyoh im bored to death lah i need to go out i have to go out somewhere but there is SO nobody to go out with so i guess ill just have to follow my mum visit a relative asalkan dapat keluar sudah. haha!
Alarmak! lembab betul siak ripway load lagu lamer gini haha! see that is So the whole reason why i refuse to speak malay i sound like a minah its either that or as quoted by Tan =) : " your malay is really funny" or some others: "you sound like a cartoon"
haha! i refuse to ever speak malay ever again. so yeah can't blame me if im failing my malay first time sey! must start reading ore malay books but they are so uninteresting its like i will close the book after a few minutes of struggling to either read the words or understand them i will only read malay books if there was pictures. haha! that would be so cool lah!
i still don't understand why american idol is played at 10pm why is dance floor played at 8pm are they priotising ? obviously yeah but it's just dumb lah i mean american idol is WAY WAY WAY better than those stupid singapore talent shows. i mean obviously they made them dance in groups because they don't have confident that the dancers/ contestant will be as good while dancing solo *rolls eyes* eh terjatuh! haha! american idol is like to die for i will go vrazy if i don't get to watch it ill propably murder producer of dance floor unless he's goodlooking which i doubt so!! i still wish there is more guys in my surrounding who looks like JENSEN ACKLES. he is SO cute! and handsome and just Wow! HAHA! i sound so CRAZY!
i love myself i hate ISWANDI! haha he's such a big k.po having tha fact that he is big size but he's nice i guess and he is my faithful reader haha. he is turning 30 this year 2x my age haha.. coool lah!! that is sO kul! haha.
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i' Ive realized something ISWANDI is such a big k.po lah! sometimes i just feel like smacking him. haha..
Anyways, i've finally succeed the feeling of success is rushing through my veins haha.. i know i did said all those mean stuffs. i mean even my friends thinks so too. but it was the only way to help him forget everything right? RIGHTTT...!! haha... im high on sugar already! and im supposed to be sleeping! haha.. i wantttttt gummy sweets....
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Tarzan is handsome, Tarzan is strong. | Friday, February 16, 2007
I'm still holding on, I'm not letting go this feeling inside me i wished you know you're my prefect joy in all of my days so please don't walk away.
Apparently my asthma is worse than i thought it was, i mean i couldn't even breathe after running up some flight of stairs. horrible! i tell you. HAHA! Chinese new years was urmmm... i was off walking around the school the whole time. during the prize presentation was utterly funny yet very embarrassing . me and the e4rians were practically shouting out our class thinking we were going to win the class decoration, but sadly we didn't surprisingly n2 won what the hell right!?!? haha went home early today, since there's like no point in staying back in school, i mean they were apparently having fun, leaving us out, i would have joined, but apparently that ERGH was there so rather not i mean why did he came to school in the first place? -.-'' destroying the beautiful scenery. YIKES! anyways, Jensen Ackles is superbly hot i wish there was more guys in the world who looks like him. I wish.
i don't think i can pretend that i'm ok thats because im not i wish we could just be like how we used to im still hoping!
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| Thursday, February 15, 2007
Darn im glad my dad is a DESIGNER. makes my job a lot easier for e maths. haha. i find his work very interesting though, but it really scratches your head when you look at it haha..
today is my unluckiest day i guess. a) i didnt get to see him. b) i lost a friendship which didnt really matter to me. c) i got scolded by mrs liaw (sucky) d) i had many asthma attacks. e) and stuffs...
i just dont know why. i can't explain it anymore. the whole of us, we were so close! it was as though we were super-glued together and nothing could seperate us. and when i was grounded, i was crying, i wanted to hang around with them. but look now!! where are we going!?!? the secondary 1 girls come in, and you just forget about us, but seriously, what do they have that we dont? stupididty? is that the nwe beautiful? we are like wayy better than them miles better. we're even samrter. i know im sounding like a jealous person, that's because i am! hazique especially!! you were the one who backed me when the others were going girls crayz, you even promised me that you wont go for any of the secondary 1 girl but you know something, you are the MOST BASTERDISE of them all !! you went off with that girl wasn't bad enough, you had to be one fucktard hypocrite you even cursed me in front of everyone, when i wasn't even in the wrong. after all yuo promised me, fuck off lah seriously. i don't consider you as a friend anymore. i won't and will not forgive you at all. just take that friendship and just dump it in the in, it doesnt make any different anymore.
i seriously don't have anyone to look forward to in school. i only care about renee,and the girls and also wasif and jamal and andika. those are the only ones i want to know about.
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| Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Epic movie suck to the core. Don't watch it!. =D haha.
I realized that i keep on being high from sugar this few days. and when i am, i become extremely mean and open? i mean i purposely asked hazique for a hug right in front of nadira haha. step macam dah biasa when i have never hugged him in my whole entire life lah. haha. i know everyone's face reaction changes. but who cares.?! haha. too bad ey he just doesnt love her, what does it takes to make her open her eyes. shucks! kids nowadays are too dumb i guess. haha.
valentines day was a ... normal day? haha. i went rounds giving people handshakes and wishing them " happy vday! " that was ultra cool. hee..
oh shit! my voice just changed! i hate asthma! dumb ey. i think must be all the phlegm or something. shucks! i wanna die. haha not really.
im so random lah today. haha i want gummy sweets!! i want to hug someone extremely fat!. i want to kiss jensen ackles. i love elman and qistina, haha im so RANDOM!!
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| Tuesday, February 13, 2007
im not going to pretend its ok coz seriously its not i think im going fail my overall A maths die!! i was so good at it once. i mean to the extend that i can teach my classmate. but what happened? i cant even do some simple sums. i am doing even worse then the stupidest kid in my class wait a minute that makes me the stupidest kind in class oh gosh!
didnt go school the past 1 and 3 quarter days. haha, dont think i will say this but i miss home. haha. damned fun at home dsiturb my adikss.. haha.. theyre sooo cute i tell ya. i basically ate the whole day. eat and sleep oh yah and watched SUPERNATURAL. the show is damn simple and sort of boring but what attracts me to watch it is that the guys are hot jensen ackles is so cute. haha i mean hot. haha..
oh yeah and i had the coolest dream about the singaporean soccer guys. haha. kahirul amri is cute. haha.. but i still prefer iker casilas. yay.! haha im hyper today
happy advanced vday people!!
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| Monday, February 12, 2007
in life you can't always wait for things to happen you have to make a move. because if you don't you will always be questioning yourself: 'what would have happened if you had done something"
i wished i still had that chance. i mean i know no matter what i do, he will still be that way denying everything that we had shared.
last time, even when im so freaking sick, i will still want to go to school he was the one who i always looked forward too i waked up calling his name ok maybe not. but i just wished things would have worked out but i guess things happen for a reason.. either way, i still love him and im trying to forget him.
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| Sunday, February 11, 2007
argh!! ive got sore throat. must be the result of eating lots of that delicious cookies and not drinking water. ayeee..slenger nyer.
wanna know something cool!! yesterday at innova was so freakng hot, that my feet got burned and there is a small streak of white that was covered by the slipper i was wearing. cool ey?? haha.
yesterday at innova was hot! but fun i presume. went cwp t have our lunch i know they have changed wayy alot. but i just dont want to accept the fact, that they did. so had a sudden break down. but im alright for now.!
i get high eating sugar i tell you. i ate a whole lot of mentos and i tell ya the outcome is horrible. haha.. i laughed like one crazy bitch. everone that ever existed looked at me in a weird manner. but who cares right. laughter is a best medicine i heard they say. =) but i just wish laughter could help me forget about him but i guess it can't i'll just have to leave with it.
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PLAIN WHITE T'S LYRICS
"Move On"
I'm feeling sick of feeling sorry for myself cuz I know I don't belong and I won't place the blame on anybody else cuz i know i don't belong don't have to take it and i won't give in to this you make me feel like i'm evil but the record shows i'm not i don't belong as i sit back i see it's you who feels the need to put me down so you belong don't have to take it and i won't give in to this I'll just move on
gonna make my move today it's gonna be ok gonna make my move today it's gonna be ok
don't have to take it and i won't give in to this i won't sit back and watch it drown don't have to take it and i won't give in to this i'll just move on
**it's easy said then done**
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| Saturday, February 10, 2007
i wanted to blog about innova. but after talking to hanim i just feel like jumping off the ledge right now. i bought a huge cookies and even personalized it. i thought of giving him on monday morning!! to tell him that i love him! but after talking to hanim.. i just feel like taking the cookies and just shove it down his throat and take the stick and shove it up his ASS. haha. ok that was funny. hee.. but the thing is i still do love him.. i just wished i can just throw the feeling away. but obviously that's not possible i just want to start this over. fuck off you "rumour people" !! (new clique) haha anyways.. you asses may think that you are having the fucking time of your life spreading all those rumours thinking that you are one mother fucker big shot having all the correct say when none is true. but dont you notice, the victim you are doing this to is suffering, my friends are! and i sure am since i got it the worst i guess. we do stuffs we want why you bother. i want to hug him, or hold his hands or wrap my arms around his is none of your freaking problem why the hell you want to know all this do you benefit, you bloody mother fucker hell dont! arrhhh.. watever lah.
** i might as well die. you dont even care anymore even though i still do!**
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Farewells | Friday, February 09, 2007
Today was hyper day for me. I think the sugar contained in the oreos and milo i had for break fast is totally responsible for my action. hee..
Anyways recess was utterly fun and wayyy interesting. me , sukashi and renee start our own mini little performance. Do ask for it if you want to witness it. we will gladly performed it for you.
" Always look on the bright side of life *shakes hands and body* ti-ti-did.tiditiditidi*
haha.. wayy cool.
The seniors received their o' level result. was told to observed their reaction. its well.. kinda mixed feelings i mean looking at those people who jump up and down and shed tears of joy was ever so touching. cherish those moments. but for the other few who cried in disappointment well i feel wayy too sorry for them but what is done is done like what my t'cher said " susah -susah sekarang, senang-senang nanti" so i assumed they had it the other way round. too bad i guess... well i seriously have learned form their mistake haha.. that is so basterdise of me but hell with that i love myself wayy to much! but i love him tooo.. wanniii... i want him!! haha i love him lah.
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Created at 20:18
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| Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Shit! I think im gonna fail my A maths test
Die ah!
Im sooo.. gonna have to do really well for my other test to pull up my marks.
I hope that’s possible.
=)
of course it is.!
Me sey. Haha.
Been a very great 2 days.
I mean no annoying messages and stuffs.
Things have moved on.
I love chemistry and e maths.
Was a really interesting day,
I guess..
I mean went jamming with Empty denial.
Damn nice lah.
Haha..
Im so excited for them.
Went safra later then,
Was fun I guess
I mean me and renee joined the instructors
Playing soccer.
Extremely fun.
Then later, iswandi was like
Haha…
Kay nvm
Iswandi was like talking some what about kholid and all those bullshit stuffs
Haha.
Cool ah
I mean true lah, stomach ulcer? Damn bullshit ah.
Then now…
Haha..
Dats just dumb!!
Seriously lah,
They are the right place to go when you need a cheering up
And away frm friends and asshole-rs.
I love them..
Not really ah actually
Haha
They look so old suddenly
But they still sound like kiddies
Haha..
‘young at hearts’ katerkan!
Haha..
i never did realised you untill today and now im begging to not lose you
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Created at 21:02
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| Saturday, February 03, 2007
quote from renee: " i'm so useless that im in negative value" seriously i feel that way ah. i've been feeling likes this ever since speaking of this reminds me of wat renee said " im in negative value, meaning ill pay people to take me" haha.. im still laughing my ass off thinking about that haha..
Anyways it soooo sucky lah. i decided to do the maths test which i realised i couldnt do its and online thingy. so yeah i got 25% thats so shitty lah haiyo..
Oh and i just read diana's blog gosh! haha.. i could flirt with tan? huh? wats that supposed to mean? i was just sleeping on his shoulder lah i mean the hug was just becoz i was scared of falling coz im standing on the mrt while sleeping haha.. kay nvm!
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Created at 23:21
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I finally get to really sleep lastnight, and i really have to thannx shamim lah seriously i spend the whole night talking to her about you-know-who
im really glad i get to lashed everything that was kept in me for like ages already i feel all better a whole load is released from me lah im really thankful! i love you shamim! haha
i guess i have to move on even though i may never know if he really did love me or he was just playing a fool but whichever it is im moving on i already did =)
no more tears anymore i guess off the pipe already haha though right now i still kinda feel like crying coz i cant stop listening to "a lonely september" its just soooo.. alarh it relates to watever im feeling right now! hehs. =D
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Created at 15:18
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| Friday, February 02, 2007
i officially bored and flat broke. i mean whats worst then being broke is bored and broke. haha im supposed to be doing my geography project, but im watching survivor and i tell ya! ozzy is damn hot! he had a damn nice body with a really nice looks and he is damned sporty having hte fact that he was just working as a waiter before the survivor haha cool. lah he's soooo.. hot!!
oooo.. i know i shud make a list of those hot guys. yipeee..
Hot guys list 1) gerard way 2)ozzy 3) syafiq (sec 1 ) 4) haha.. i dunno. syafiq again?? alarh... he's cute lah haha
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Created at 22:59
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First things first! i HATE emotional guys! seriously it gives me chills lah not in a good way. i mean emo must know limits lah. you know what i mean lah.
SYAFIQ or however he's name is spelled is sooooooo.. CUTE!! EXTREMELY CUTELAH! gosh. he's so cuteee.. i just can't get over his cuteness lah! he's soooo CUTE!! haha.. too bad he's too young for me. 2 years different sey. he'll be extremely hotlah when he grows up he's like the kind of guy i would sooo.. love to have seriously! he's sooooo..cute!!! =) i want him can?! haha
track training was... how shud i put it not satisfying i mean i sprint-ed but i dont know my mistake coz they didnt bother to point it for me. and it was extremely sucky lah. i mean wallets and moneys and handphones has been stolen me and renee were like shud we returned it back??" haha... funlah! after track was damn hungry lah and i was flat broke!! so yeah took a few cans of curry chicken form gym and ate it with hands haha gross as it may seem but satisfying nyummy!!
i know its not the smartest things you do we just cant seem to get it right but what i wouldnt do if i have one more chance tonight
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Created at 21:09
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| Thursday, February 01, 2007
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
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Created at 20:50
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Ok so i emo-ed just now i just need to get this out of my heart and head whichever. so i wrote this within like 5 minutes? so yeah
You gave me so much hope but what happened!? its all gone now, you began ignoring me walking away from me every time.
Time's when i try to talk to you and when i try to get your attention like how the other girls do you'll just turn away and tell me to shut up Even with that little thing you do it torments my feelings how i hate to admit it but i just cant get you out of my mind. of all those times when my tears was shed you were there but as if you would care, those reasons ill die.
how could you forget all those things we shared the memories that was made oh! how i craved your touch thinking of that reminiscences of past gaiety just brings me to my knees hoping for that day to come again
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Created at 19:23
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Her Say
If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me
and come out at night
when I turn jet black
and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
BETTER LOOK
FATIMAH MASAYU
Above average of height
With a weight on a constant movement
But still acceptable
I'm dark skin, all thnx to,
those outdoor activities i engage in
I talk way too much
But who cares
I'm just being myself
Im told that I’m violent
Hear this!
I know that and,
I dnt need you people to keep
Repeating that like its some kind of chant.
Wishlist
New Phone
New Shoe
New Jersey
New and Better Results
Lots and lots of MONEY
Clay Aiken's newset Album
Taufik Batisah's upcoming album
Hady Mirzah Upcoming Album
